right, so this was the worst night so far.

there was just this attitude and mood of such condescension that was so present in the room that i was actually near tears at some points. the worst bit was when the conversation devolved into one basically of “well what if, twenty years down the road, gay marriage is legal and we could then be sued for not wanting to marry gay people in our church for discrimination!!!1!!” which is um the worst logic ever and is so ridiculously prejudiced that i’m almost crying just thinking about it.

i just—

i’m so disillusioned with my church right now. i’ve always been told that we love everyone, but now i learn that there are some people who wouldn’t want to let openly gay, legally married couples become members which is like what?!

how is that okay? how is that the image of a church loving everyone? how is that modeled in the image of jesus? answer: IT’S NOT.

and the whole time they were almost rationalizing it because ohhh, over 80% of the people in the room know a gay person (per a survey we took last week) so it’s not like we don’t know what it’s like!!!11!!

i am just so frustrated and disillusioned because i want them to be so much better than this, if that makes sense.